So on Friday, I quit my job of 8 years. It has been the only job I’ve had in my career field. It was a great job, but I was burnt out and I got to a point where I felt like if I didn’t make a change now, then I would never be able to.
Result? A tearful conversation where I gave my notice. My boss was shocked. I was shocked that I cried; I’ve never cried at work before despite some very tense and upsetting moments. It was not a dramatic exit – I had my script written out in advance, my boss was very receptive and thanked me for my time at his company, and then I just started to cry and could not stop myself. Luckily, I was able to finish off the conversation and make it to the bathroom before I really had at it.
Now, I am going to be jobless in two weeks, in a foreign country, with about 8 months of savings. I am questioning what it is I even want to do in my career, do I want to stay in my field or try something else?
When I originally planned to quit, it was because I wanted to get into the non-profit field, and do something that felt a bit more meaningful. But after I quit, I am freaking out and sending my resume out to competitor agencies of the one I just left, as I think I have a very good chance of being hired quickly. But I have made a pact with myself today that I will not accept a job for at least 1 month, so I have time to really think about what I want to do. That is why I quit in the first place, right?
One thing that I’ve always wanted to do but have been too busy or too scared to commit to is writing. So I am going to commit myself to updating my blog more often and to pick up my two draft novels that I have been working on for the past few years. Fingers crossed.